ciel's kin list

before we begin...
some of my kins have no double warnings on them. these usually do not apply in your average social setting, but i'll make the distinction clear as we go.
i tend to get sort of possessive of my kins. please don't take this personally, i'm not sure why i do it either..!
(i also give exceptions to people i know well, and especially so to good friends.)
all doubles are valid!
i kin spiritually. this definition is a little finicky for me; however, the best way i can define it is that these are like past lives for me. i am no longer these people, even if i refer to them as "me."
... however.
i experience depersonalization frequently. if the cards are right, i tend to get really enveloped in these kins. i get defensive and pushy, and usually want to look for my [x "canonmate," if you can refer to it as that. while i do not experience delusional attachments, i do hope that these feelings can be respected anyways.
i also have several problematic kintypes, either in actions or in source material. please know that i'm definitely a better person now than i was then, and consume all material critically. i do not excuse these actions, but i don't let them define me.thank you for understanding!

begin

core, id, primary kin

these tend not to shift around;
however, they may jump in ranking around their own section.

cantus the minstrel,
fraggle rock

core id. no doubles whatsoever.
i was a fraggle-bird mix who, in a weird way, managed to keep to himself. very old, very wise, very, very gay.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

pink floyd,
the wall

core id. acceptable doubles know who they are.
a washed-up rockstar with trauma i wouldn't face until it was too late. i have a lot of gaps in these memories.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

the skywatcher,
cirque du soleil, varekai

id. no doubles, if they exist.
a very scatterbrained bird grandpa. i liked funny fruit, tinkering, and having breakdowns over prophecies.
[full memory list]((https://listography.com/kalopsiavian/memories/the_skywatcher), playlist, pinterest board

sgt. floyd pepper,
the muppet show '76

id. no doubles, please.
bi trans man in a theater troupe with the rest of the muppets. all of my memories are unnecessarily dark.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

discord,
mlp:fim

primary kin. iffy on doubles.
all i wanna do is have some fun. i got a feeling i'm not the only one. ...not many more details aside from that.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

t. matthew fraggle,
fraggle rock

primary kin. iffy on doubles.
i was very traumatized but too stupid to realize it. i just wanted to make my nephew happy and proud.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

the russian federation,
HETALIA WORLD STARS

primary kin. iffy on doubles.
miserable social skills due to isolation in "childhood." also comatose for most of the 20th century. whoops.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

jasper,
steven universe

primary kin. iffy on doubles.
pink diamond's fall made me feel like a failure. nothing was ever going to make me feel that way again.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

sgt. pepper's trumpeter,
yellow submarine

primary kin. no doubles, please.
in a polycule with the rest of the lonely hearts. helped fonud pepperland. no, i'm not ringo. stop asking.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

harvey dent/"two-face",
dc comics

primary kin. no doubles, please.
an absolute mess of a canon with two sets of memories at once. loved the riddler so much.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

alastor,
...hazbin hotel

primary kin. no doubles, please. i hate it too.
lived as a radio host, died as a grand thief. spoke with the occasional southern drawl. made a deal with husk.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

the rum-tum-tugger,
cats the musical

primary kin. iffy on doubles, leaning just fine!
an alleycat with a passion for (punk) fashion. had a sweet spot for misto everyone knew about but me.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

vaughn,
retrodile

primary kin. no doubles whatsoever.
go from a self-hating defeatist to a sadistic cannibalistic god for the price of your fucked-up eye!
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board, creator

fogus punch,
cirque du soleil, solstrom

primary kin. no doubles, if they exist.
a college graduate who only studied astronomy for the aliens. was not a professor. i was like 26, jesus.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

anthony j. crowley,
good omens

primary kin. no doubles, please.
a demon with the weight of 6,000 years of yearning on my shoulders. my hair never got that short, on god.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

lord summerisle,
the wicker man '73

primary kin. no doubles, please.
the father and king of a pagan commune off the coast of scotland. i was very proud of my people. also, acab.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

andrulian fawnlynn,
fer.al

primary kin. no doubles, please.
i was simply a clothier. i loved birds and avoiding eye contact. my favorite memory is of holding a picken.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

skekTek the scientist,
the dark crystal

primary kin. no doubles, please.
the runt of the litter with the most potent anger. all i cared about was sidetic. run-of-the-mill mad scientist.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

siebren de kuiper, sigma,
overwatch

primary kin. iffy on doubles.
i went from a genius saving the world to a weapon destroying it, and all of it flew under my radar.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

stolas of goetia,
helluva boss

primary kin. no doubles, please.
a hedonistic prince with a possessive streak. my father was a tyrant. i, however, was just a faggot.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

urGoh the wanderer,
the dark crystal

primary kin. no doubles, please.
my other half and i wanted nothing but for this world to be saved... but then we got high.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

next

secondary kin

those with more formal profiles may jump between primary and secondary. tiers always tend to be sort of loose for these, but i have trouble reorganizing this sort of thing...
they also jump around in order in this section.

baxley,
predator 2018

secondary kin. no doubles, please.
a ticing time bomb incomplete without my friends. dressed like a bi man and hoped no one noticed.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

dr. junkenstein,
overwatch

secondary kin. no doubles, please.
i was a weird kid who played with dead animals. little did they know that that would prove to be very useful.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board, photo credit

randall,
oc

secondary kin. no doubles, please.
i was cursed into a clown body because i tried to climb hell's ranks. now i bully a college student.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board, creator

captain boomerang,
dc

secondary kin. doubles know who they are.
i was an extremely unstable man who was only into the crime business for the infamy. oh, and the money.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

mefisto,
encrucijada

secondary kin. no doubles, please.
an age-old demon that presented as a middle-aged man for whatever reason. i liked salty foods a lot.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

sol,
warrior cats

secondary kin. iffy on doubles.
a housecat who never learned to survive in the wild. i became just like my mother as i aged. big floppa.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board, art credit

the gray man,
lsd: dream emulator

secondary kin. no doubles, please.
i was merely a figment of the dreamer's imagination; however, i abused control over their intrusive thoughts.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board, photo credit

silent bob,
view askewniverse

secondary kin. iffy on doubles.
not much to report. your friendly neighborhood loiterer, with special interests in dc, technology, and weed.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

sidebottom fraggle,
fraggle rock

secondary kin. no doubles, please.
i was an extremely repressed alter in boober's system. i was also consistently off the shits.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

the father,
the final cut

secondary kin. no doubles, please.
a traumatized ex-vet who took my anger out on everything but the right things. also gay. just a fun fact.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

the narrator,
fight club

secondary kin. iffy on doubles.
i lived my life in a monotony i barely remember. tyler forced my - or should i say, our - hand in his direction.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

hosea matthews,
red dead redemption 2

secondary kin. no doubles, please.
i was about as old as my "profession" could take me. i had seen too much, and that kept me from my best.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board, photo credit

elizabeth afton,
five nights at freddy's

secondary kin. iffy on doubles.
about as traumatized as you'd expect an afton to be. my memories range from "i love ponies" to my death.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board, art credit

skekSo the emperor,
the dark crystal

secondary kin. iffy on doubles.
i was tyrannical with my reign because i was afraid of being overthrown. no one with that knowledge could live.
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

spigot,
bonequest/jerkcity

secondary kin. do doubles exist?
a hypoactive queer with a hyperactive mouth. did cocaine for the meme. for the love of god help me
full memory list, playlist, pinterest board

deet (tdc:aor); jack twist (brokeback mountain); the kingdom of sweden (hws)
the republic of turkey (hws); doug rattmann (portal); zim (invader zim)
scp-4999 (scp foundation); big bird (sesame street); 2p!france (hetalia)
red guy (dhmis); skenfrith (fraggle rock); asgore (undertale)
zondra (the jim henson hour); TATARI (poploid); vesta (animal crossing)
+ unlisted

next

tertiary kin

the electric lucifer (bruce haack); mopatop (mopatop's shop)
mermer merggle (fraggle rock); audrey ii (lsoh); the roman empire (hws) (art)
harry the hipster (sam and friends); the boogieman (gorillaz)

otherkin

mainly "me in a weird way"
r kin; skekses; goats; songbirds; goldfish furbies

next

kinsidering

simon (lord of the flies) (art); hawkeye pierce (m*a*s*h)
dr. habit (smile for me); fujimoto (ponyo); guzma (pokemon sumo)
kyouko sakura (pmmm); nandor the relentless (wwdits); snufkin (moomin)
norman da luz (honey i'm home); shrignold the butterfly (dhmis) (art)
klaus hargreeves (tua); blood kobold (fer.al); chris stevens (northern exposure)
stunk (interspecies reviewer); murdoc niccals (gorillaz); jigen daisuke (lupin iii)
comus (first utterance); tokk (ori and the will of the wisps); stein (soul eater)
kenji yabuki (wdyeyd), sasao komori (pw:aa gallows)

unlisted

don't ask.

magi-chan sonichu (sonichu); ray drecker (hung); walter white (breaking bad)

weird attachments

i'm not sure how to classify these. i call them "kins" because that's convenient and probably just what they are... but they feel like a little bit more, sometimes. they can shift around.

cantus the minstrel; pink floyd; skektek the scientist; anthony j. crowley
the skywatcher; floyd pepper; stolas of goetia

i enjoy referring to these as "me" more than anything, especially when shifting them. i'm not sure if it's just an intense kin connection, if there's actually an introject, or if i'm just weird.
i'm probably just weird.